My Struggle

do you know what is life to watch as your life end... when everything you love is gone when your family doesn't claim you and doesn't want you around. when your children don't soak to you an bs your no longer included in their lives. when your husband only plays with your head and heart but has no intention on being with you or being by your side to help you through. when your whole being is sad and you honestly don't care if you live to see another day when your drowing in sorrow and smothered by pain. when your scared to do anything because you know you'll fail and you don't want to let your children down anymore. when your fighting so hard to be normal and have a normal life but its so hard to d because you were abused and your scared of everything and don't trust anyone because everyone you loved and trusted has hurt you. daily I struggle...alone to be okay... to keep going although I don't know why. im a nobody...a failure... not important to anyone at all. yet here i am still fighting this battle. watching as my soul dies and my body grows tired!