my story part1 dysphoric

I was born a he I thought that was me for way too Long I played that part fathered kids with the only one In my heart I tried on her clothes and it felt right shaved my face and slept the night a rarity but now I know I'm not cis i told my wife I had a smoke and told my sis my parents were acceptingz but don't like the will to keep living my dysphoria is ove1rpowering