My shame 03#

Some days id ponder Id lay wide awake at night I'd think 'does he too Wonder's about the things we did, that weren't right Did he know it was wrong to touch? That it was wrong to grope that for a child, it'll all be too much To much that can't be washed with soap Did he lie awake ashamed like I did? Did he think about what it did to me? Did it ever made him cry like I did ? Did he even feel guilty? Hes probably forgotten, but how could he? Maybe it's no longer something to ponder Did he enjoy hurting me? I wonder