My Own Worst Enemy

I so want to live, but i feel like im yearning to die I want deep meaning and connection but i want to be invisible and hide I want to be happy and laugh, but instead i wallow and cry I want to be patient but i just don't have the time Why must i be so awkwardly contrived Bringing pointless hassle, stress and misery into my life Most if not all my own doing, because of a damaged mind Sitting on excuses hoping it will all just work out and be fine Instead of just living and doing what it is i know to be right i make my darkness out of my light I am my own worst enemy, seemingly never giving up the fight © DannyNorman