My own self-hate

I'm sorry I couldn't give you what you need And you, you just need to be freed Too slow to give, Too fast to take Hating every little one of my mistakes There's nothing I should have to fear But I'm afraid Here's all I want to hear But you're decayed Not enough, never enough Get me through, show me too It's all my fault, I fear Am I not see through? All four failures are my own fault No one else to blame They did nothing wrong I should be better, ashamed Can't get up, I'm still on the ground No one to blame in the end A thousand arms to hold me But I won't reach for any hands Self-destructive, self-deprecating, Improductive self-hating But I can't help it, you know that I made the slip ups, so I'll take it, hate it, take me, hate me, I'll live with the There's nothing I should have to fear But I'm afraid Here's all I want to hear But you're decayed Not enough, never enough Get me through, show me too It's all my fault, I fear Am I not see through?