my non-addiction

It's not an addiction, Really it's not. But that mirror, It's a source of affliction. Not long ago, I could look in that mirror And see nothing wrong at all, But now I've got nothing to show. The pressure to be perfect, It tears away at my body. At first it looked like nothing, But it had a side effect. I wanted to be one of them, One of those girls everyone envied. But the price to pay was my body, Not a small pretty diamond gem. It was never enough, No matter what I did. The skipped meals Turned my image rough. But will it ever be worth it? I stare and ask myself. My image in the mirror, Kept begging just to quit. It became a nightly thing, Standing on that scale. And I was pleased to see That the pounds kept dropping. My hair was starting to thin. My bones began to show. Everything was different. The desire was starting to win. The pain I was putting myself through, The constant suffering, Everything was just a blur, But nobody ever knew. I don't starve anymore, But I could if I tried. It was a part of my life, Now just a closed door. It's not an addiction, Really, it's not. But that mirror, It's a source of affliction.