my mom in heaven

dear mom, I know you're in heaven but it's sad you didn't make it til I was seven... in fact, it was the year before this year, the year you and dad came together, and I really thought that would be forever now you died, and every night, I cried just this feeling this feeling isn't right could end it all I maybe might, but if I do, I'll lose all sight of people I love but maybe be above? with you and with you is where I want to be but I've been told I have something to live for, can you see? I need glasses to see that there is a future waiting for me because I am for you and you are for me and it's really sad you had to leave....