My mind

You're the only one who is always around me. You understand my pain and you don't leave me, You're listening and talking with me, you are honest with me and you tell me what I am. But You're destroying me. You hurt me with words. You control my mind and my body. You tell me that pain is what I deserve. You play video's of flowing blood in my head. You tell me I'm a burden, a disappointment. Until I believe it myself. I was a mistake, I'm ugly. I don't deserve food, love or sleep. I'm alone. No one listened when I told them I'm in pain. Except for you