my life⁉️⁉️⁉️

I hate my life so much. but then on one hand I love it. on one hand I look at you and I feel the love. you make me smile and make me laugh. you make me want to reach goals and improve my self. but then on the other hand I piss you off. I never seem like I do anything right .. why try I feel like I never do anything and when I do something I feel like it's wrong. you think I don't hear you call me selfish. you think I don't hear you calling me a dumb bitch. but do I ever hear you tell someone you love me. do I ever hear you tell someone that you're lucky to have me. which one do I feel happy the most about and which hand is reality⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️