my life

one minute, I am happy after that, it's horror I want to oky all the time but world, the clock ticks backward they think I can do it all but am bounds by rituals I go beyond my limits and they become proud of me but they don't see the knives that come after that am still a kid they laugh at me I can't do others' do. They despise me I hide secrets, I know but all that is get out of trouble they wanna know my world. yet they can't survive in it they wanna what I go through that will horror in their ears my fake smile my deep secrets