My Inner Demons

I struggle a lot Depression, anxiety Sometimes, i feel like a robot I don't feel like me My PTSD has recked my life I get flashbacks every day "NO, DONNIE, NO, I'LL GET A LMOFE" Hopefully, they'll stop someday "STOP HITTING HER," I scream I scream, I yell, nothing works Maybe it's just a dream Oh, God, here come the waterworks My inner "demons" make life better I don't even know if "demons" is the right word Now, I'm not trying to be a follower But this is my hell from the "Lord" Why me? Why must my life be like this? Why can't you just let me be? If I left, would I be missed? I ask myself this question every day I've tried three times, maybe another time will work I can't bring myself to do it Maybe someone will miss me someday Why do other's inner demons make life hard, When mine make life easy? Mine make me feel less like a bard They make me feel more alive