My honesty; Part 2

I need to relearn my entire way of thinking. Life has always been one big game to me, and I'm tired of thinking like that. I want to be genuine. I want to be myself. I want to trust that if I am myself, that I won't get hurt to my breaking point. Because if life is a game, and I use my mask and be someone I'm not, the hurt is minimal. But if I'm my true self, and someone hurts me, then I can't lie to myself and say it's not me they're hurting, it's someone else. It removes me from honest feelings and accountability. I've been hurt so many times that I've needed to think of life as a game and not be myself. But I want to be real for you. I want to be myself for you. And for him. And for your family. I want to be my best self for you all. And to do that, life can't be a game I control anymore.