my honest opinion

I know that psychologists wanna try their best to help me at least some of them would but I want everyone to understand that I don't want to follow through with all those appointments when they wanna convince me into something I'm not comfortable with at all I just want those ears to listen genuinely not judging, watching my mental condition and making everything worse i was told "get some meds for those crazy thoughts to go away" and I felt so pressured by the thought of being stalked and of someone else deciding how my story will have its ending don't get me wrong, I just need a break actually a long break I don't know how long I don't wanna do it their way I know myself the best after all