My heart cry part one

Am I even useful? I just feel like taking my own life One man with many weakness Can't I just stop this sinful habit Must I commit sin And always ask God for forgiveness I am really tired Like so frustrated I really want to give my life a meaning And make it useful for God But I just keep hearing multiple strange voices Seems like I am under spiritual attack This is not the life I want This is not the way I started What went wrong along the line Why am I so daft to keep going back to my sins I am just fed up Trying living a pretentious and fake life Trying my best to please God And the next minute the flesh is calling me And not just the flesh But Loud voices that wouldn't stop Please can you stop talking to me And let me decide what I will use my life to do I am 26 But noting to show for it I am not moving forward or backward I am just in one stupid spot My family is probably fed up of me But they can't say it Who will I tell this tale of mine That would believe me They will think I am joking But I mean every single thing I am saying Or should I make my plight public So that they will know how serious am I People have spoken to me And gave me countless advice but it's not working