my heart bleeds tears

What to do? What should I do now I feel the void spreading It almost completely consumed me Why do I want to grab the knife now Somebody stop me Why do I want to bleed Why do I want to cut so deep Why don't I stop Why don't I Why don't I Why not me Why not me Why not I can't stop myself now My hands are freezing, My head burns Please don't survive I don't want to be Tomorrow is such a day a day I hate I don't want to stay Not today Not tomorrow Not yesterday I want to cut so deep Tear out my feathers Shed the tears Rip out my heart Shoot my brain Make me feel pain get numb