my heart

Why doesn't anyone want me? Am i unlovable? The questions are missing the answer and my hear is breaking again. I feel so much but none of my feelings are good. I feel dumb because i thought that maybe, just maybe there's someone waiting for me. Oh how wrong was I. I feel alone once again, i feel regret and guit, i'm mad because i let myself feel again. Why am i so unlovable but all i feel i love for people that don't even care? I was alone my whole life, i've been through a lot of pain and maybe that's why i need to feel the love.I can't take it any more. Seeing everyone is damaging, i don't know if my heart can take anymore pain. Maybe if i finally break, my heart will close and i won't struggle as much.