My head and heart

I just I love when i'm with you but why this have so much weight? it feels right but why my heart seems to be waiting to be broken in any time? my body is acting like I have to wait for something really bad, like you're going to break my heart and I will just have to wait time enough for it. I know it's not true, I really do. But it's like I can't belive you really choose me. Why? And my body is acting strange, I love you, shouldn't I say? Iloveyou.IIoveyou.Iloveyou.Iloveyou. I just wanna stop my mind. Why everyone keep calling my name when I don't wanna speak? Sometimes i just wanna make everyone shut the fuck up. I think everyone is so noisy. I think my heart its too noisy, can't it shut up? Just a little. Please. I wanna put all my toughts in paper but I just wanna cry when i write something too deep. In the last months I just forgot how to cry, and now i'm crying so much that my eles hurt when it starts. I'm always so mad and so sad lately why? And i'm always so damn nervous about everything. My head is aching all the time now, for no reason. My body is too noisy all the time. imsorryimsorryimsorryimsorryimsorry.