My Head

I just want to cry but I can't My father's face dances in my head Real men don't cry is what he says I wish I could get out of my head But the only way that my brain brings to the front page is the end I don't want it to end I say I have so much to live for My wife my son my family I wish I could just cry and let these emotions out by I can't I wish I could have a day well I felt at peace but I can't I guess this is a list of wish is what I say So time to get back to reality Where I work to take care of my family Where my family won't even drive to say hey But hey I guess that's okay That's all I ever say Because I don't want to to be a problem I don't want to become an issue Now I'm seeing my mother's face Just trying to .are her happy as her life falls away She's not gone but what do I say She threw our house into chaos But what could I have done No what should I have done I was 18 at the time doing what I could to start my life A life that I think about eneding almost everyday I wish I could find peace that isn't the end.