my happy birthday to you.

happy birthday. you're finally 17. are you happy? do you think your day will go perfectly? did you even think about how bad you've hurt me? I'm guessing you didn't. hearing your name from my family's mouth makes my heart drop, almost out of my body. hearing our song in my playlist, skipping it because it doesn't sound the same anymore. watching your IG stories as soon as you post hoping it'll be about me. everyone says i should hate you but they haven't seen you when it was just us two. i was happy and you were faking your love for me Why didn't you just tell me from the jump? I loved you, and i still do.. ALOT. seeing you smile with the other girl was all i wanted with you. i wanted to be the girl whos the reason you wake up everyday happy because you have your other half. i wanted to be the girl who shows you that not all girls are all the same in this generation. i just wanted to be your girl. if only you were in my shoes and you saw how in love i was with you. but you'll never know because this is the birthday paragraph you'll never get to read. Happy Birthday Duwayne.