my grandmother's daughter

how often IS too much? baby, don't cry, I know I don't see them,falling down your face, and I don't wanna see you when you've spiraled, caught in your conspiracies, those take away your reality, bit by bit. do you know what you've done? im sorry, i know, you're killing yourself, the one you've always lived as, you're infected from within, poisoned with perfection and cynicism. was there a time you remember? yes, I remember too, that; hey, I'm here for you, I can help you too, and you know I'm not stupid. I've never been. a form of unconscious knowing, I can tell whats within. leave me stunned with how you get away with saying the worst things, ill let you say those words to me once again, I'll let it sink through my skin, feel it in my flesh, I'll take it away from you, I want you on your best, I know you love right, but see it from the left, my darling, time has hurt you, so I'll never rest