My future

Mind on rotation mode, Wondering and wondering, Am I a failure? Perhaps a loser? Take it easy, so they say. I mean, easier said than done. With no improvement, I am losing patience, With no improvement, I am losing hope, Not trying hard enough? Maybe, but I think I am. Not everyone will make it, Am I part of those who won't? Not everyone will reach the finishing line on time, Maybe I am running late, My thought. Does it easy the pain? Motivate me to keep trying? Not even, I am just a helpless soul with bug dreams, At times dreams remains dreams, Nothing less or more to it, Truth of life, One that we are running from, Infact, THAT'S REALITY!