My friend hurt me

We would talk for hours and hours You made me laugh and smile I felt wanted by you, and loved too You found me when I had no one and needing saving I trusted you and told everyone and everything that hurt me You listened and complained, which is why I wanted you to stay But as time went on you acted strange You didn't tell me when you dated a boy You got close to people who hurt me You started being dry and rude for what? I felt hated, alone, and lied to the whole friendship I thought you were supposed to be my muse My person to go to when I'm down I was always there for you at the end But where were you? Hanging out with your boyfried? Ignoring me and leaving me on read? Talking to the people who hurt me? I never knew, all I knew was I needed you. You made it seem like I was to blame Like I started the flames and poured the gas Like I hurt you and wasn't there When I always was But where were you again? Not with me You talked about me behind my back You talked bad about me to my face But it was never your fault, but mine You stabed me so many times I'm lucky I'm alive I'm still standing but with multiple wounds So many tear stains, never happy, low self esteme But somehow it's still all on me and I'm the bad one I distanced my self which hurt me, but did it even hurt you? I cried and cried but you moved on I never knew that you were so cruel I miss you I really do But it would kill me to crawl back to you.