my Father

still don't know why you left why leave and later tell me you knew of my existence why walk around for than a daced and a create a new home whilst leave one in 2003 I have questioned whether "my father" is the likes I avoid and hate on the daily. Yet my mom became victim to one of them I wonder whether one day o will stop feeling like an outsider and finally feel and ease but then I am reminded who my father is and the grieve I didn't know I once natured comes hailing all again. There is this constant feeling of unwanted Ness I seem not to be able to shake off am constantly hating on the comment " you look just like your father" The laughs that come with this comment pain and showers me with sorrow of to why people say that and wasn't even there to see me grow, read of cry. There is grief in my heart when I think of my father and I too am confused why I can't just shove it in and move along If it's love that lacked between them am still confused why I had to come along in the mix cause he most definitely didn't care about me then why does he now.