my desire is loving me back

I'm not love I'm just wanted only once and while if love is this then I'm only loved when only you want to stop and love me that day. my desire is being loved amd wanted showing me you even care yet when I needed you the most you let someone or something else get In the way. one day you see the mouth you carried set of the butterfly in me you had. you well realized the wings you ripped of was my wings so you knew I couldn't fly and still my desire of you loving me back well never changed cause you keep throwing me away knowing I'm broken and can't fly away.