My Dearest Friend

As I write this I think of only telling the truth, In the only possible way I know how to do. Through the words of poetry like so many others, in hopes that you understand my deeper meaning. Although I've only been at your house three times, those short moments stay with me always. Even now when I'm meant to be resting for work, I cannot seem to fall asleep as the minute I do I begin to wonder what if? What if I had acted on some more intense emotions when I had been there, what would you have done if I had kissed your neck? Or just simply held you in my arms when you were helping me with the dishes, how would you have reacted to such an act? Or what if I had said I wanted you so badly?, What might've been your response to those words?