My Darkest Desires

How could you possibly scare me? Someone like you? Oh please, darling.. you could do your worst.. and I'd still love you. And.. Maybe, oh yes- maybe I'd even go as far as to say I'm worse. You see, there's a fine line between a lovesick fool and a psychopath. I've never really liked the latter. You might be able to understand why. The truth is, in my mind I could see you everywhere. In every place ever gone, I imagined you standing tall and proud. Within every dream, you were there.. Every love song had begun to remind me of you. and oh god, the thought of absolutely breaking you to a point of unbridled desperation fills me with excitement! It's like some sort of sick game. To know you're so close but still not quite close enough. And then, the thought of YOU reaching YOUR breaking point.. It gives me a sense of pure pleasure. But it's always that thrill of discovery before I fall completely into darkness, my head spinning. And then when I finally catch up to you, I feel so happy and warm and free. And for a while, it was bliss. But, no matter how much I try to avoid it, pretend to be normal around others, this obsession with you continues. It eats away at me, slowly consuming my sanity.