my curse

again, again and again everything goes wrong my soul is the target of the evil the ones that lurk in the dark what they want even l don't know I wake up crying, screaming sometimes l stare at the ceiling at this point l got so used to it but to have them in the very room as me terrifying to know it's them those who l love who don't want me they'd go to such lengths I know what fake means the smile,the love they show the pain lingers to know l wipe,l forgive,l love , all l could do is offer a smile back hoping, praying but it's nothing but a dream I too would like to live to love to fail to succeed to smile to dream but all this is but a dream they would move mountains just to put me under what l've done even l don't know it's a question that ponders me day N night now l don't even know what normal is how blessed you all are to sleep, dream N live for l don't know what that's like but a taste because this is my curse