My blind eye

It's easier to feel I'm at fault, I love life, but felt mine halt. My mind works like a boomerang, too often I feel, I should hang. forgive and forget so many say, but I can't forgive my own dismay... I can't ever forget my own misery. I'm sorry, for my treachery... my tounge hisses like a snake, I know... it's a mistake... though I mean no harm, I say truly. forgive my tongue, so unruly... my eye closes as I stress, too easy is it to digress... I know I need help with my soul, I feel nothing but a hole.... In my heart that I hold my dear, kick my ass in the rear... For I hate only myself, though I try and forgive, my own mistakes the world wants me to live... I'm tired of excuses; my own I mean... because I see my light, yet I don't feel clean. I beg you God, forgive me please, rid my mind of my disease... and if the disease is me, at least I know you'll take care of thee, for she is with you now, ascended above... singing along with you, like a dove.lk I beg for your strength, I lost mine, promise me please that I'll be fine... I lost my light and that's okay, for she is with you now this may ❣️ oh my dearest, I miss you... but thanks my fellows, I know you're in the hallows ❤️