My beautiful poison

everything that reminds me of you are on repeat all my desires of you are on repeat the thoughts of you in my head are on repeat the cravings for you are on repeat borderline obsessive, something like a fanatic, as i lay here peacefully pathetic envolped in the lack of your presence as your poison slowly seeps in my essence self harm like withdrawal from a substance steady almost rhythmic like a heartbeat..... it still hurts as i the numb the pain solutions yet a breathe away id rather stay here my beautiful poison