My Anxiety 😰

Every time it feels like I'm free from my anxiety Somehow I get to where I just can't breathe My anxiety always seems to come back and suffocate me I really just want peace, tired of wearing this mask pretending to be happy. For some reason it feels god never really wanted me to be He always wanted me to be one of his strongest soliders and to go through these little battles and trials, But God please no more, my heart is so tired. Can I please have a break, at least for a little while. If only you knew how often I think about taking all these pills so I can disappear, But leaving my kids is my only fear. I have always tried to be a good mom, person, and friend, but no matter what I do I feel like such a failure, I don't know why you brought me here, I just want it to end. They say you don't put no more on us then we can bare, but this load is too heavy to wear. I'm not sure why you hate me so much God, it's just not fair. Please stop giving me these hard battles if you say you really care. It's hard with my anxiety we're such a toxic pair. So God do me a favor if you have some time to spare,you see as long as I'm here my anxiety will forever be a part of me, so please I just wanna be set free.