MY anxiety

I wake up with a puggle of sweat I had a nightmare again Then I go back to bed 10 minutes later my demons arrive I'm having sleep paralysis again it like this voices keep playing, in the back of my head and I can't get them to leave me alone i tried everything, 15 yr old tired of living going to bed wishing to die conscious feels like this voices gets louder when I try to quit them these demons keeps pressing me, I swear they are the fallest but i got comfortable with their presence my thoughts are their palles i try to evict them they come with more I'm always scared cause I'm too scared what will people say I lay awake at night staring at the ceiling I'm tired of this lonely feeling spent my whole life trying to to run away from this feelings the feeling of being anxious the feeling of being lost the feeling of screaming to God begging him to take these feelings away but only getting silence in return the doc gave me medication the pastor said "pray" but this anxiety still aint gone away dl fogive me if I fantasize by being gone today let me take my pills before I hurt myself again