Music,running,poetry.

Music. I'm listening to it right now. if I can't run I listen. it's the only 2 things that makes me feel free. it helps me to think,or even stop me from thinking too much. I think the reason I listen to it so often is because it's the only thing I can relate to, feel a connection with. it's strange and confusing. I feel wierd I don't feel myself anymore. I'm 13 this year all my friends are gonna be 12. why am I the oldest. I mean I like being the oldest but sometimes I just need a break. I get spoke to and treated as if I'm an adult. I know I lost my childhood a long time ago so now I have to think about stuff I shouldn't have to yet. and music can be the only solution to make it stop. atleast for a few minutes.