Mushrooms

Mushrooms shown me a place I wanna visit in heaven. a room was everyone's story in a book on a bookshelf. why is my story the way it is? Why did God put me here to hurt? why am I here? what's difference between love and pain? God is a faith and healer. I don't feel faithful or healed. my trauma is deep in my soul. the world is a scam. I wanna pack up and run away to never been seen again. it would do everything justice to never see my face again. I'm unclear what I'm doing. Mushroom made me ask questions about what I can't unsee.