Mother's lost child

I wish i didn't grow up feeling hurt and alone, envious and jealous of things that i could not have, things that could not be possible, things that just were not meant for me. I hope i can one day see a future where i won't feel like im carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders, i hope one day that i will see a future where i won't have to muffle my cries and tears as i suffer in pain and grieve for what i had been robbed of. I wish for the day to come sooner. The day when i can stop questioning why it had to be me.