mother

if You know , my feeling sometimes i still need you really want you stay with me but iam realize... that you are not here anymore beside us your childrens . want to telling story or just listening what i want to say .. sometimes i feel not getting power to face the hard world but realize your spirit united with me so i can face the world how ever the situations not forget to Allah SWT give me the good living than before even still must hard strunggle , but iam satisfayed and i fell more be closer to ALLAH SWT the talent that i have , Will be changed like a diamond that sink in the deepest sea , but is not easy , many kinds of to do just like Beat our self .. it needs long time years to handle them but actually i never know that i can reach that i still remember , there is someone telling me that i could not do that but with the runs time , i can but the thing is not to proud , in steed with of iam reach i Will never more closer to ALLAH SWT , and i getting knowledge that i ever know before , and i think this is amazing experience then what is your experience , is there something different