MOOD

It's kicking back again The thoughts, the wishes, the regrets, the traumas, the past, the feelings... They're coming back again. What does it feels like to be completely happy? What does it feels like to have no worries? What does it feels like to be loved? What does it feels like to have someone to talk to? What does it feels like not to be compared? What does it feels like not to be intimidated? Guess I'll never find out the answers to fill up my doubts Or maybe it's because I'm too weak ? ... Discovering the answers that I seek . And to every smile there's a pain behind it .. A wound hoping to get healed A hole hoping to get covered up. But how long can I keep up with this? How long do I keep up with the fake smiles, the fake laughs, the fake happiness...? How long ? I'm getting tired and my strength is failing me . Some say "fake it till you make it" But is that who you truly are? Will you go with what society thinks or says? Or go with what you believe in or better still...who you are ? But the question is!. WHO AM I ? HOW LONG WILL IT LAST? It's TRAUMATIZING.