~Monachopsis~

Monachopsis, a feeling of being out of place. A feeling of distachment. I feel like I lose myself with others but isn't that for the better? It's better to be lost with friends then to be found alone... Anything is better than being alone... I repeat that to myself frequently. I repeat how I should be grateful for the slightest of conversation. I repeat how if I'm not of use, than I might as well be alone, because they'll leave me eventually, I simply will be a conformation of what they want and what they need, though I know it's not truly me.