Mom

I'm so sick of you making me feel worthless I just want someone to hug me and tell me I'm doing a good job with myself I just want someone to notice how well I've been doing in school and how well I've been handling all these activities But you seem to only see the cons about me I just want you to tell me you love me and mean it And talk to me other than when you need something We can't have harmony for more than 10 minutes All of my best memories always are blurred due to you saying something before or during or after It's impossible to be around you and I've known that subconsciously from a young age Maybe this relationship would work if we had some distance between us And I keep imagining the type of relationship we could have like one where you would ask me a bunch of questions about my friends and I could tell you everything without being scared of getting yelled at or being called names about every descion I make I make up scenarios in my head where you praise me for the good things I do and where you tell me you're proud of me because I know that will never happen in this life time unless I prompt you to and even then it'll be forced I wish that when someone asked me about you I wouldn't have my hear