MoM

Ive been good making something out of nothing, blot some questions are you afraid of dying? What am I supposed to say when I’ve been drowning without water? living in a cruel world trying to figure things out by myself, were you there? No shadow indicates you're fighting this battle with me. I've tried to fight alone with every fist and blood I draw. I've tried to shield myself from dangerous things. But my fist is small and it can barely hold on things. What do you expect? MOM I'M LONELY. I think I've learned how to battle up when dad nowhere exists. How turn lonely into anger, the anger into despair, So when I tell you I need you. I mean when I'm falling asleep watching anime on the tv screens to avoid confronting the empty side of my bed. But monster drew bigger and bigger, and it drags me down in my sleeve until my bones are the forgotten fossils of a skeleton sunken city, the auditorium of my chest swooms vengeance jungle. But I am the careless tourist here, I will never truly know everywhere I have been. MOM STILL DOESN'T UNDERSTAND. Mom, I don't understand myself either. Wish I could meet my five-year-old self and kneel down beside her.. she was right all along... That monster was real.