mixed emotions

having literally lost everything and ur turning on your survival setting in ur brain content ... you don't realize how your affecting other people ... the same people that hurt u most the time ... but I'm not built with hate I'm built as an empathy I'm built with mistakes and understanding ... experiences that no one should go thru... understanding is my 2nd language .. words can be beautiful and enlightening but unless there followed by actions that represent those words ... they ultimately mean nothing... nothing just like where I am gonna b tomorrow ... clocks tic tocing away till all my eyes will b able to see is the cruelness of this world and how they do outcasts ... people can only take care of what supports there interests not urs ... you can never expect to much from the wounded already ... but once in a blue moon.. there are some people you'll stumble upon randomly that change ur whole existence .... that make u open ur eyes wider and see what's real ... I know whats real . this is real ... but your not and that is so sad all in itself ... sorry the world has let u down so much in ur life u treat others the same way u feel inside ur head ... because that all u know how to hear ... is your self ..