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I love mitski. her lyrics match with her voice, the quiet agony of loving, the quiet hurt of life. or maybe, it's because I can relate too well. the hurt. the resentment. the confusion. 'open up your heart, like the gates of hell' I like that the most. 'i am stronger than you give me credit for' i relate to that most. it's hard to live a life of confusion, where every next word seals your fate, where every Smile hurts, where every cut is release. but that's nonsense. I am too young to know real pain. real loss. real hate. but maybe, i am. everyone is. but also, no one is. it's life. I care too much, my heart aches for the ones like me, full of hate and resentment, but full of love and life. I love like a puppy, running after the people I love, returning more anxious every time. I drive them away myself. it's ironic, when you think of it. I'm hard and unforgiving, but rely on love and forgiveness. but in the end, it's just life. and in the end, I just like mitski.