missing you

it's been over two months since you passed, yet I still yearn for you. yearning for your love and comfort I ponder how you are doing up there Are you happy? sad? comfortable? I imagine that God is with you, assuring you that I will be okay. I will be okay, but like the growth of a tree, slow and tumultuous. I miss you everyday, feeling the tears cascading down my cheeks as I reminisce the good and the bad times we've been through. We've been through it all. All the pain, joy, suffering, etc. Leaving you on that fateful December morning 12 years ago was the first major heartbreak I've ever experienced. That is nothing compared to the heartbreak I experienced 2 months ago, while lying on my bed, wondering why I couldn't sleep and then I knew that it would be the most painful heartbreak I will feel for the next few days, weeks, months, years, I don't know how long it will last, but I know it will be a slow and difficult journey towards healing and recovery. I know I'm not alone in this journey to recovery, but my heart yearns for you everyday. As time progresses, I learn to cope and reminisce the memories we shared together. Wherever you are, may God be always by your side.