missing love

At first it was love at first sight, down the line you feel you can't afford the love you want, but money can lost the love of your life, and you feel the yelling and the hitting you take is a learning curve of love that you think that is right, you bare the love you think you deserve, you bare the love you think you want, you have no one to turn to, you feel alone, and you think it is true love I love you I'll do anything for you, I can't breath without you, is this love? is this what love truly is? if so, then why can't I see myself in the mirror? why can't I see my own eyes? I love you, but ... I hate myself, I hate everything about myself, I hate who I am, I hate the person I became, I hate myself butbi truly love you. good bye to my love and myself but I'll try to see you tomorrow.