missing her

Misses When the memory hit ,deep within. It is you I see, together with me Missing the bad moments more That's what makes me psycho learnt I couldn't love you enough The memories I embrace The way you embrace others instead of me I kiss my own desperation the way you kissed him instead of me I couldn't be enough Discontented you was My validation is all you wanted To get attached so as to retreat Leaving me the only emotionally available Playing poker gambling my emotions While you placed no stake Lost to an empty bet Was the only one who lost My heart became juice not of this world My loving heart a stranger to own My hate fucks my personality Getting children and multiplying every day Saying sorry just like a spell I don't say nowadays Empty empathy in me is As empty like the love you had for me My unloving nature ignited by your unloving love I miss you for messing me up I Miss you for making a monster I am I miss you more for ending me completely