Mind tricks

I'm addicted to the chaos because it follows me I can go down a different path but it always leads me back to agony No destination can make me forget My soul is wounded and filled with regret I do not seek a reality full of lies The cravings set in and I become mad before your eyes Shadows of darkness compose my mind It's a vicious cycle but I'm not trying to hide The chaos awaits me, it runs deep in my veins I am damaged, I am broken but I'm not insane Every day I pick up the pieces to my shattered soul I mend it back together, but each time the scars leave a bigger hole Living life through lifeless eyes Get a hold of yourself I say but I just want to die