Million times

I know I fool up too many times to count. But I'm not trying to be trouble. So God, please help,don't let me be this way. Please, Lord, make me a better me. I mean, I'm not trying to be a villen. But I turn out to be that when I fool up. Fool up a million times and more. I don't want to be that no more. I want to be the person they want. Nothing else. I mean, still be me the me I am. But be the better version of it, not the one who fools up a million times.