mi amor.

her memory is the only light I hold deeply in my heart from my past. it keeps my inner child happy and at ease. her presence, her eyes, her smile. although I haven't seen her up close in awhile, I can still see exactly how she'd approach me if she was going to. her eyes locking in on me as she would step as close as she could to me waiting for me to hug her. she knows Im shy but others may assume differently at first glance. I know I would instantly hug her and probably cry and not let go.. its hard. seeing her in different moments of my days. but never along side me sharing that moment. shes with another. she's happy.. shes smiling. when I feel her emotions, I can't help but feel my presence is just causing more pain for her.. even though I would come running at her request.. should i?.. am I just resurfacing emotions for both of us 😔 my heart started beating for a moment. strong, happily, eager, excited.. but to see you sad.. because of me... just makes me want to cry..—😥💫