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I've been staring into the vine glass Feeling like a total mess Lost the battle Lost myself In my own tears Thought I could win But already fighting felt like a sin Now I'm totally lost Holding your hand Scared of our end Would you still love me Knowing my entire, messed up soul? I think you'd laugh and mock me Like all of them would Or are you different? Are you ignorant or innocent? Never has it been this difficult My trust turned into dust I'm only a child But deep inside of me I've been an adult for a long time Overtime I learned how to rhyme But I could lose the words inside me anytime Would I find them back? It feels like I'm under attack Are you going to save this soul of mine? Are you going to catch that heart of mine? Or will you just be fine?