Melancholy

I've been too long in this hole I sit alone in this dark hole Where emptiness and nothingness lie I can't rise I'm stuck below With no hope Sadness and betrayal hold me down I've become a captive of this abyss I no longer want to try to smile Or act as if I'm alright My breaking point now I lie With no one to hold I'm not a champion Though I've won wars I'm not a warrior Though I've fought wars I'm not a helper Though I've given all I have It's not a service But a sad thing I tried my best But it seems it's not enough It's now a mirage As I face this crisis I'm sure I'll rise But warmth of the abyss Makes me want to stay here awhile