Me

I want to move on but I keep getting stuck in the past , I wanna feel free but I just got more strangled by the rest , I want to feel the joy around me but the silence and the sorrow always overshines it , l wanna be normal but the extrovert me never lasts , I want to have different emotions but the happiness fades away leaving my pain at display , I wanna cry out loud and let go of myself but every single tear reminds me of the worst , I want to make more friends but their future betrayals haunt me, I wanna have a perfect smile but the people around me always end up seeing my ugly tears I want to know how it feels to be truly happy but I keep tasting the bitterness in life I wanna be the diamond who has high value but I always end up being the gem which was bargained to buy